As much as I’d like to think of myself as a spontaneous person, I know I’m more of the planning type. I don’t need to have things planned down to the minute – I welcome spontaneity – but I’m also not the type of person who is 100% keen on “playing things by ear.” Ugh. That phrase makes me cringe.
When it comes to making plans for the day or even something like an event, I can come up with a great system to make sure things get accomplished and organized. I make a plan, I execute it, and usually things fall into place as anticipated. Usually.
Fortunately, I’ve had this ability for the better part of my life so when it came time to plan for college I knew exactly what I wanted to do. I decided I would go to Bible College, get married immediately after graduation, have kids, a steady job, work in ministry alongside my husband and save the world one church service at a time. This plan was not only solid it was doable and had been easily accomplished by several others before me.
I did end up going to Bible College straight out of high school, I graduated in four years, and I landed a steady job at that same college two months after graduation. Even though I wasn’t married at this point, I was at least happy to be on course with my life road map and I was sure my husband would be in the picture relatively soon.
Somewhere along the line, God and I stopped functioning on the same page. Plan A was going just fine and now I’m living smack dab in the middle of plan triple Z. The husband has yet to be found, the kids are still non-existent, the steady job is gone, and it was only up until last year that I became actively involved in ministry again.
Living outside of my original plan has been anything but easy. I’ve had to deal with the hurt that comes from broken dreams and unmet expectations – and the stress and fatigue that comes with revising life plans is exhausting and, at times, overwhelming.
However, as much as I would have liked to stick to plan A (or at least something resembling it), I could have never planned for all of the amazing things that have resulted from living outside of my original blueprint. The experiences I’ve had, the people I’ve met, the lives I’ve impacted and those that have impacted me – plan A would not have allowed for any of it.
I’m learning that it’s my job to continue to seek God and make plans – I can’t just float and hope for the best – ultimately trusting that his plan is always the best plan. He knows what’s on the other side of the closed doors and he’ll lead me to the open ones I might not have ever considered walking through (James 4:13-15).
He has a plan for every one of us. It may not always look like what we have dreamed or anticipated it to be, but if we continue to trust him with our lives he will make our paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6). Trust in him.